Three weeks from today I will officially become a stay-at-home-mom.
Yep, you read that right. Stay-at-home-mom. I’m excited and nervous at the same time. I mean…what do I DO with them all day?? (Especially during the summer…) I’m sure I’ll figure it out, but it’s what’s on my mind right now.
So…what happened? A whole bunch of crazy stuff. You may remember my post about depression. Well, I thought I had it under control, but it turns out that I was wrong. I had slowly slipped back into sleeping a lot (“lunch hours” had turned into nap time), and my work had been suffering. When I realized what had been happening, I was horrified – simultaneously that I’d let myself slip so much at work…and at the realization that I just didn’t really care all that much. Time to head back to the doctor. Meds have been upped and things are getting better now.
The other part of it is that I’ve been feeling guilty about not being around to help the kids with their homework. Both Burke and Maggie have been having…”issues” at school, so I have been feeling like I should be around more. And then I was also feeling guilty if I went to after school activities when I was technically supposed to be working (even though I made up those hours).
SO….two weeks ago I asked to go part time. My boss TRIED, but there’s too much work to do and they can’t hire anyone else, so it was denied.
I chatted with Mike about it and he told me to gather all of my expenses together. He determined that we could handle me leaving completely in 3 months (What?! uhm…okay!). Three months meant we could pay off the last bit of Disney on our credit card and pay for all the summer stuff we want to do. Cool. I was beginning to wrap my brain around “3 months until I stay at home full-time!”
The NEXT DAY our nanny told me she was leaving in a month to go back to school full-time. I texted Mike and he said, “Okay. Tell your boss you’re leaving in a month.” (Uhm…What?! Okay!)
I waited for a day and then chatted with my boss. He took it well (I suppose it wasn’t quite out-of-the-blue for him since I had asked to go part time), and told me that if I changed my mind within the next month, he could reverse everything and I could stay. (So nice!!)
I’m sure there will be growing pains along the way…but bring on the play dates!!
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